my friends.....
somewhere between the [procrastination] and the homework....
and the incessant forwards and the friendships
and the calls to each other complaining about [crushes] and [boyfriends/girlfriends]
somewhere between phone calls to old friends
and the "i miss you's", the "i love you's" and the "what are we doing tonight's?"
and somewhere between all the changing and growing....
somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes....
and the studying for tests...
and the [pretending] to "study" for tests...
and the downright NOT studying for tests...i forgot
i forgot what school was all about
somewhere between all the appointments,
starbuck's coffee, and fast food...
paying bills and then not paying bills...
making plans then breaking plans...
appearing, disappearing, then reappearing...i forgot
i forgot what it was like to cry
i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy....
and that pretending to be smarrt doesn't make you smart...
i forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the FUTURE...
i forgot that you can't controol falling in love ...
and that you can't make yourself fall in [LOVE]...
i learned that i can love....
i learned tthat it's okay to mess up...
and it's okay to ask for HELP!!!
and it's okay to feel like crap...
i learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day...
i learned that sometimes the things you most, you just can't have
and the things that you look for, are right in front of you
i learned that the greatest thing about high school and college and the working world isnt about the parties or the drinking or the hookups....
its the [friendships], which means taking chances
i learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about....
i learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things
i learned that just when you think it can't get worse...it does!
but, with the love and support of friends -- you survive...
i've learned that when you start feeling bad about losing touch
and also about those thtat you've lost
they, too are feeling the same way...
i learned that letters from friends are the most important things
and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better!
but, basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world, and without them i wouldnt be the person i am today...
so, ththis is a THANK YOU to all of my friends...
for always being there
and even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch...
just know that i have nothing but love for you... | 
help me someone! hehe much mahal!! <3 CaJeL
